Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Interpretation and Re-interpretation

Not to sound like a sociology/anthropology dissertation, but it is interesting how in one generation; just one generation we can go from one end of the spectrum to the other as Sri Lankan Tamils. 50 years ago, these were our cultural markers: educated and erudite, wealthy, respectable, extremely close-knit and communal, strongly allied to place, a strong sense of genealogy and ancestry, cultured in the arts, principled and disciplined, quiet, hard-working, conformist, risk-averse, homogeneous above all.

And today? Well today we can look at the list below to see what has happened. We are dislocated and displaced, traumatized, afraid, betrayed and betraying, isolated, selfish, politically expedient, purposely ignorant, our political leaders self-assassinated, psychologically dysfunctional and above all, paralyzed. In fact, as someone said, Sri Lankan Tamils don't miss an opportunity to miss an opportunity.

  • Tamil refugees and asylum seekers - trauma, on welfare, un-assimilated, poverty, dislocation, family dysfunction
  • Tamil diaspora in the West - Youth are in gangs, disenfranchised, violent or espousing violence
  • Wealthy Tamil diaspora in the West - despair, sense of failure (in comparison to all of the others, nothing)
  • Tamil refugees in camps in India: in an open prison, disease, near-starvation, poverty,security issues and family dysfunction
  • Tamil Internally Displaced Peoples (IDPs) in camps in Sri Lanka: disease, starvation, major security issues, extreme poverty
  • Child Soldier Rehabilitation: Issues regarding re-integration into society, lack of education, psychological dysfunction
  • Former LTTE combatants : see above
  • Tamils living in Northeastern Sri Lanka: a sense of living in occupied territory, poverty, lack of leadership, politically fragmented, with no leverage whatsoever.
(Apologies for the glibness of the above - it is meant to be stylized)

As Arundhati Roy said in "The God of Small Things", things can change in a day. And an entire civilization can be gone with the wind.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

mundru mokkangal

The greatest thing you will ever learn, is to love, and to be loved.

What is life, but love in all its thousand manifestations?

Having watched 3 idiots twice (which is well on its way to becoming the biggest blockbuster in all of Indian film history - kind of like Y Tu Mama Tambien for Mexico, which I also watched in the same time period - an interesting juxtaposition on youth) - I can only say that it was tremendously heartening to see what one barely dared to believe; that it was okay, nay, it was NECESSARY to live life on one's own terms - to follow what was right for only you and for no one else, to not bow to meaningless conventions, while still finding a place within this society, with the courage to remain misunderstood, and the ability to form one's own happiness.

This attitude is never gotten easily; as one character says, it took me 2 broken legs to stand on my own two feet. This attitude was hard to get. You keep your job, and I'll keep my attitude.
I wish that it was; that it was easier to obtain and maintain this attitude in the face of overwhelming pressures; that the voice of originality, curiosity, wonder and joy prevalent in early childhood, was easily adhered to during adolescence and early adulthood. It is not easy to bend life towards one's own terms. But I am increasingly convinced that no other life is possible or desirable; in fact, that any other life, would be a poor imitation, a mockery of the gift of life itself. It may have taken me one harrowing year to realize even the faintest intimations of this attitude, but I certainly hope it stays; for the world seems so wonderful when one has it, and so bleak, without it.