So.

So is all that I can say at the moment.

It's been a totally crazy couple of days and everyone's been PMSing on each other and tensions are high due to the escalating political situation. Everyone's loyalties in the office are caught in a bind and we are seeing exactly where they entangle, snap and in some cases rip each other. As each day passes I feel only that I am increasingly unqualified at what I do and the facade of competence that I maintain becomes increasingly wearying. I sound like a victim half the time and I'm angry the rest of the time and it isn't healthy.

Focusing on language and the way we understand things. Coming back somewhere after 24 years, it's too late to remember the lullabies sung when i was three, too late to understand the subtleties of a language that I spoke fully when I was seven and then tapered off, too late to understand the intricacies of social structures and social norms here, too late to want to change, too early to accept that some things can never change.

And always the endless waiting, in perpetual uncertainty for an answer.