over

I am so over this country right now. Everything has ground inexorably to a climax and my nerves are actually shattered right now. I can't believe that this was the week where there was a suicide attempt at the General, followed by airstrikes by the GOSL and people fleeing the East. Also some relationship drama last night just makes me want to howl and to throw things and just release anger and bitterness and sadness and the stupid thing is that its' not about him at all, its about me, about my inability not to fuck things up time and time again. I'm filled with acute self-loathing. And the week ahead promises some major drama at work and by the end of this coming week, I'll be ready to just open the dammed-up reservoir of tears at this whole country, my whole year here, the people I've met and screwed (and vice versa) and then I'll blithely jet off to grad school and abandon everything.